Unexplainable !!!!!!

Finally I succeed with a comeback and here I am, again with my bloggers!! Believe me, it sounds awesome when people come up like, “Demit, You are still alive!” BTW I am still.

Actually, just recently I came across a stranger’s status on Facebook (by how, I don’t like social networking so much, now) - ‘the one who I had someday, the one drove me through the golden days of my life, is the only one responsible for evolving me into an overrated bustard!!! I know you would never see this but you were, you are and you’ll remain “A bitch” only. And how big scoundrel I am who still missing you”. L    

Seriously, it was damned disturbing. I really didn’t get him exactly and anyhow got so curious to know what happened and through how terrible conditions that sufferer (Lover, Looser or who knows scoundrel, don’t know) had strolled? How could he become so pathetic for someone who once loved him?  Did his Girl really unable to sense the fire concealed his frozen feelings inside?

More then interesting and fascinating, his status headed me back to my earlier days, perplexed like hell. Why does love have to give so much pain and emptiness?

Revising my lost love, I ended with “You were right, my stranger friend. Shit happened to everyone.” ”I too miss her, buddy!” She is the only one that I hate yet relate to. Her existence is the only I tend to run away from yet my sole shelter. Her name is the only name I keen to rub from my page of life yet my only scream every night. Though she abandoned me with no hope, I still miss her. I still like her. I still want to be with her. Still wish to meet her. I still love her. So still, I am alive…………….

When the rays of sun stop bleaching my ways ahead, when the tweeting birds route back to their nests, when the ascending moon starts dwarfing whole world into black, only her name howls inside and I realize “Oh, again it’s dark!”

I can’t explain
or you jus say “I don’t have anything to”

Though, don know who still

Carries your memories inside                                                                            

My empty hands or this broken heart

A harmed soul or few untold whispers

Or my silence

Who could be so strong?

For now

Alike a mystery, I am silent

sitting at the shore of present

revising that past

you were never to break my heart

you were never been so harsh

Was that really "Love" or

JUst a lie

A lie to rely

All way, I am new now.

Newer actually

Newer, brighter and happier

But not lovable anyhow...........     

I promise!

So finally, I am back! Actually, buzz of 2012 stashed ringing for a lill longer and Dear Simmi you were right "Party never ends"!! Although, ceasing all further "cheers-up", here I am, with my resolution for these upcoming 350 or plus days!..

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I promise,
I won't throw "Jammed Bread" again out of my door                           
may pray daily and will never eat before
I gonna learn how to tie my footwear.                             
Open zip and uncombed hair will no-more
with me, you can assure.

I would never come home late at night                             
and, no matter if it is bright apart
I wouldn't leave before breakfast
I shall start drinking "Bournivita" everyday                            
and beleive me, I may never forget your birthday                          
Like your, My room will also remain clear                  
Ahhh, I'll finally stop saving "Beer"
I'll carry on my virginity ahead and
might find out my soul-mate pretty soon                                   
Don't laugh,I shouldn't watch anymore cartoon

"Please" and "thanks" will always be on my lips
And shakira what could I do,
"if something wrong with your hips?"
My collection of clothes will go better
Throwing few torn jeans away
I would have a gorgeous array

At office, I'll always be on ten perfect
No-more delayed projects, no pending content
Pefect and prompt i will be, trust
And you, all my frendz,
stop being so smart,
Now,It's my turn, don't ever forget!

So, here is the list of few promises this year
actually not so sure, this or next year
or some later....
Huwwwww, leave it,
Don't you remember,It's new year eve
So just shout and shout more
It's all for us, let's hit the floor.

"No matter if lill late,Wish you all a very happy new year!"

You won my heart, unfortunately hate too !

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"There’d be a turn ahead,
,hold me tighter!" stressing down
few lines at his forehead he warned her.
"For forever" she believed and
adhered closely to his chest .
Like in a perfect summer eve,
Unaware innocent delight.
glittering sun might about to set,
birds heading toward their nest.
Moist breathes,kept love thinning out.
Breakers came and went,
but, like a winner
they fought together.
And all of a sudden,that "turn" turned.
Freezing all love, summer had gone suddenly
“Adieu you stupid" she said so easily.
Moisture of breathes, had come to his eyes,
fire of feelings had thundered besides.
Sun had dimmed now!
"How could you say so, how, how"
"I'd hate you ! All time and all from my heart"
You'd recall me but I'd remain apart"
that knight wanted to say.
But “how would be life ahead?”
shifting his heart away.
"I can't give up!
No,I won't breakdown"
but actually the knight of journey
had lost his queen.
:(

"Dammit, I loved her!"

"Almighty" is always here, what matter if things are going damn terrible in life! Your Jesus is with you, all-time, all where. Look around, have you really lost your last hope? Time arrives with entry of a perfect match (I really thought that moment) makes you feeling out of this universe. Every morning turns up brighter. Chirping of birds, shinny days, gloomy nights, everything becomes so phenomenal like never before. Heart starts flying higher and higher and one day it's lost. Imaginations take away your own soul and heart.
You feel like you get the new and real definition of "happiness". And guess what suddenly, one day a storm comes and ruins every single dream of you." I never loved you" simply touches the inner wall of your ear and you feel like cheated....
Don't know how to explain what goes ahead but it really sucks and I'm going through the same phase of my life!!!
"Dammit, I loved her!"

How silly, don’t ever cry you stupid
Oh my heart, it happens all where, all-time!
And all for that someone,
You never had actually.
Listen, you don't need anyone,
Jus move on, on & over past.
Why so down, why so lost
Why your eyes are so moist? 
C'mon sweetie, you deserve better
It's a new moment,
a new day, a new season
So, jus kick off all those reason!!!!

All-around, all-time
like a monk, begging for livelihood
My heart, stop all this.
"Must Go On" dat's the Life
But you, a still
For what
are you waiting indeed?
Trust me, she won't turn back
Just throw all your hopes,
And dreams.
Promises are nomore,
Don’t you know that?
Now wake up
it's a new day today
A new sun, a new world
Let's discover a new you
feelingless, tearless!

You don't remember !!

Remember, once you said "I love this rain"
Than what happened,
Why did your umbrella still open
Same went with sun
You stated you loved it
But for shadow you looked actually
When it shined.
And finally it was me
How could I be so exceptional
"I love you too" you asserted several times.

Someday...Somewhere

Things usually come. Come and go. Moments pass, days pass and year too but something remains damn constant throughout the journey. Irrespective of conditions, time and distance, something inside just never forget to make you feel completely  lost. Still, whenever I breath deeply, I think of her only and my heart jus goes on on skipping beats again and again. Might I have already lost her or jus about to, though still I've a belief. A belief that she would be forever in my heart, in my breaths, my wins, my defeats, my days, my nights, my frendz, my enemies, all and all in my everything. She the one who couldn't be mine ever, just own everything of mine.
  

somewhere……
Someday,Somewhere
out of this world, it must be the world
Where you, Me and only the sensation of our love
where we'll be together
I'll be with you and you’ll be with me…
Only you, only me
and just the holy love of our

The morning again would come up with a sunrise…
Brighter and brighter
Again shiny rays would be here
and chill of this moon…
I would feel in your arms…

Might be distant away or near
Don't kno where is that world
Or if that even subsist or not…
Somewhere I won't be too upset with myself

Waiting could take breaths
But awesome joy would be after that
Just with this belief
I am waiting for that world to reach
Really, you are down soul
whose embrace has kept me lost in dreams…

In the race, for my love
to my love
restless, destination less
just a way, keep running
and I am on it
On the track, destination less

Grasping the moment
When you have come
Not for long, but you come
and become my happiness
My joy
Keeping that moment in my heart
running, I am running

With a hope
someday..Somewhere…
The magic would again on the floor
that world would come
Love would exchange
on your lips, with my lips…
No words, just the feelings
somewhere……
Someday,Somewhere
out of this world, it must be the world
Where you, Me and only the sensation of our love
where we'll be together

Prayer of split hands !!!

"Love has it's own power"! Yup, undoubtedly true. At the touch of love, if you don't receive much, than be sure to get a poet inside, with lot of pain". May not with all, but it goes exactly same in my life. Under stars or down to the earth, there isn't a place where I fail to feel that pain. Every night a cloud of pain starts looming inside, filling tears in my eyes. Someone once said, “more you wait, more you will get". But no one really tells how long to wait." After a storm comes a calm" but don't know when would "Katrina (Storm)" inside my heart stop and calm come? How long I would need to console myself, "Although you might set in deep darkness, it would be an awesome light tomorrow". Everyday I wake up proclaiming "Tomorrow is another day" but still it seems million miles away.
"Wonder things often come in small packages" and that's why I fell so profoundly in love with that star to be fearful of the night. Suddenly nightmare morning arrives and ruins every dream.Who told you,"All good things must come to an end". "My goodest ever" still missing an end.

"Even every dog is allowed a bite", so hey almighty," please let me have my last bite! Send her back in my life. Just for once. For few moments only, I am begging you.".
;-(

Dear almighty, here is your child
on his knees, saying something
Please listen, please
I know you are allwhere
In my Mom,My dad
in my family and frnedz
In my bag, in my mind
Lil in my boss too
And yup,in few of my colleagues
I just love you just all-where and Don't you feel so
You know all that.
Today I am begging something
Answer me, why do you keep me too away of her
anyway make me reach that joy of my life
She, your beautiful creation,almost prepared for me
Who the hell than, did that change in your book
Anyway I would be with her in Heaven, say "Forever".
But, before that send her back in my life
Is really something,not in your hands.
Go for it and order your employee to make it
My desires are going down and down
Request you, please me for once
make us together like before
Hands in hands, smiling again
place her in my life, just for once
Just for once!!